Friday, November 28, 2025

Gratitudes

Yesterday was Thanksgiving, so I tasked myself with coming up with as many things that brought me joy and fulfillment as I am years old. As I wrote, I realized how much richness there is in small, often overlooked moments -- those little sparks that quietly shape our days, and add up to a successful and joyful year.

I’ve now grouped my list, since 62 random things is, er, reeeeeally random. Which of these bring YOU that momentary plip-pop of happiness?

Nature: sunrises, the smell of pine needles, the fuzzy feel of lambs ear, acorn mast years, the crunch of autumn leaves, the deep and humid stillness of caves, the color of fall leaves, Bob the raccoon and his (her?) begging ways, textured tree bark

Music & literature: Brahms (all of Brahms), T.S. Eliot’s The Waste Land, poetry, musical sequences with appoggiaturas, online Doctor Who, kazoos (and collecting kazoos and sharing kazoo wisdom)

Family & community: turkey with family, parallel play, the hubbub of togetherness, passenger seat productivity, the instantaneous transpacific chat world

Everyday joys: the smell of brewing coffee, warm-water showers, wool socks, the set of ten garden clippers so one is always to hand, bubbles in my seltzer, the light tug of a brush in my hair, chapstick, the potato masher – the most useful single-purpose tool, baby wipes as a cleaning tool

Activities and their accoutrements: walks at the beach, birding with dad, hiking boots, amazing artwork, arrows for archery practice, compost!, pickleball, another training (and one more than that), the garden cart, campfires (with marshmallows, or even without)

Specific joys: plans (they’re their own goodness!), books, so many books! a snuggle blanket on the couch, photo collections, birdseed, cat snuggles, a really juicy footnote, stretchable gloves , felt-tip pens, a good book on tape, a fuzzy hat with chin flaps, afternoon naps, frisbee

Teaching joys: That “we can do this” feeling at the start of a class discussion, the direction the discussion goes that you weren’t expecting, the lightbulb moments, medieval dancing

Foods: dilly bread, raspberries, peapods warmed by the sun, fresh-baked cookies, dehydrated apples with cinnamon and cloves, corn and popcorn and hominy and corn pudding, potstickers

Little sparks like these, when counted up, turn into a year full of happiness.  

What is it that brings YOU that slight little “plip” of joy to your day? 

Thursday, November 27, 2025

Everything Notebook Transitions

What, you may ask, is an everything notebook? It is the reality that my live proceeds these days in a series of bound books, part of which is devoted to research notes and writing scrawls, some of which is notes from meetings (ugh), and the rest to the daily-functioning by way of my somewhat idiosyncratic to-do list in which “sweep hallway” and “interpret unheighted neumes” exist side by side, just as they do in my brain.

An everything notebook SEEMS like it might be similar to a bullet journal, but they are not the same. I think of a bullet journal as a sleek little productivity engine: neat logs, tidy bullets, color-coded habit trackers, and a page for every goal. Everything fits, everything has a home, everything looks nice. (I wish I were that person, but I’m totally not!) An everything notebook, on the other hand, is more like a cozy attic where life lives in glorious disorder. Tasks rub elbows with meeting notes, recipes, hiking plans, manuscript lists, and “must-buy” lists. One page might hold a to-do list scrawled in angled lines; the next, a diagram, a doodle, or a quotation that I loved. Handwriting can range from elegant to exhausted, the layout can go backwards, sideways, or in spirals, and URLs and lists of my digital files sneak in at the back. It’s a system that survives chaos, celebrates variety, and holds memory, action, and creativity all at once. If a bullet journal is the tidy office, an everything notebook is the whole house – and you get to wander through it whenever inspiration strikes.

An everything notebook is the place to track what I’m doing, jog my thinking, capture that recipe for microwave-in-a-mug apple crisp, take notes to figure out helpful routes to thinking about AI usage in the humanities, remind myself what I need at the grocery store.

  • FILLING 1 apple sliced thin, ½ Tablespoon melted butter, ¼ tsp cinnamon, 1 tsp brown sugar, 1 t flour (mix)
  • STREUSEL: 2 Tbl cold butter cut into 1 Tbl flour, 3 Tbl old-fashioned oats, 1 Tbl brown sugar, ¼ tps cinnamon
  • INSTRUCTIONS: Layer (filling/streusel/filling/streusel) in mug; microwave on high 3 minutes. Yum.

Everything notebooks add value in a variety of ways. They reduce mental clutter. Want to remember it? Write it down! They maintain continuity across projects. How did I decide on this set of documents? Oh, that list was something from the black notebook with checks; oh, look: I decided to limit myself to ones using feminine verbiage, right. They create a ritualized review of one’s work, the fits-and-starts of what I’ve read, what questions piqued my interest, what strategies I dreamed up, but also, what friends I’ve written, which hikes I’ve completed, and what restaurants we’ve visited on dates. In short, an everything notebook captures the full texture of a life in motion, where ideas, tasks, and memories all have a place they can be written into existence for later decoding.

But every season, a change must come, and one nearly-full notebook must give way to a new and pristine notebook so the jotting, writing, drafting, and listing has space to expand for another few months.

And that transition is rather fun!

I take the transition time as an opportunity to review just how much work got done over the last season. There’s always the to-do list, and there are guilt-projects to be harvested and made priorities in this new season. (The spiderwebs in the garage are back on the list of things to do this week.)

But I also look over the notes I took, the articles (plural, oh my gosh) submitted for review, grab the list of manuscripts that I’m mid-query on, and copy over the various items that will jump-start this season’s productivity.

I make a new table of contents as I go, so that I can find things again. I also cross reference items so I don’t have to hand-copy old bibliography. It’s not like the old notebook goes away, it just stops going from meeting to meeting to coffeeshop to campground and sits on its shelf with many years of peers. So, “See Purple F25 fol. 23” is enough for future me to track back to where that information is found.

STRATEGIES FOR USE: 

If you’re new to Everything Notebooks, I have a few things that work for me. I operate from the disposable model – my notebooks are the cheap 100-page Compsoition Notebooks that go on sale for schoolkids every fall in our neck of the woods. I use a variety of handwriting styles, from the “almost asleep scrawl” to the carefully shaped pretty text I’d be comfortable sharing with peers. I have a few big sections that have worked for me – the front 50 pages are for research, and I drop projects on the 10 page mark – the one at p. 49 works backwards toward the beginning; the one on p. 30 might run pp. 30-39 and then 29, 28, 27, and so on. Personal stuff clusters in pp. 50-70ish, with recipes and trail plans and gift-lists jumbled cheek-by-jowl. Starting on p. 70, I have notes from meetings; this winter notebook has fewer pages set aside for those since we don’t have meetings during the winter holidays, hallelujah, And then, while I keep the back 2 pages for URLs and apps and digital clean-up procedures, I then work backwards from p. 98 and earlier with to-do lists in four columns across the opening, sometimes grouped, and sometimes random, as the mood strikes me. Other people line through their lists, but I make my lines vertically, to the left of each item, so I can see if it’s done but still read it with tired eyes.

There are many new scholars who have started their Zettelkästen – who will spend their careers in the ordered gathering of information in ways that are retrievable. I appreciate that model; the ability to make connections across readings from one year to the next and one topic to the next is the gift of a scholarly system that can pay off in productive mental engagement.

My way is different, though. I keep spreadsheets and documents, nested folders and outlines, and all the good digital materials that reflect a modern scholarly profile requires. URLS are my friends, just as they are yours. And I might just have a spreadsheet of spreadsheets.

But at heart there’s just something comforting about grabbing a pen with your morning cup of coffee and opening up the notebook and taking notes. I like their tangibility; I like the photo-images of arrows and scrawls and reminders-to-self that open up a complex set of intellectual associations in a handy, easy-to-interpret but casual form. These mnemonic jottings are useful -- I went rummaging back through pre-Covid notebooks just three weeks ago to prep for a lecture where I wanted to reference something I’d read back-in-the-day. There it was on the notebook page, and the example that had come to mind then dropped in smoothly into my 2025 lecture outline.

Still, recopying things into an everything notebook isn’t just make-work. It is a reminder to my brain about what is important now, and what I want to be doing over the next two or three months.

And that just might be more research, fewer meetings. But some decisions are beyond my control!

So, if you’ve ever felt your thoughts, tasks, and ideas scattering in a dozen directions, try giving them a home in an everything notebook. Start small, let it be messy, let it be personal, and watch how the simple act of writing things down can make space in your life for productivity AND reflection and, even better, for memory AND action.

An everything noteook is my “get it done” place; I hope yours helps you get it done too!


PREVIOUS EVERYTHING NOTEBOOK POST: 

Cynthia J. Cyrus, "My Late Lamented “Everything Notebook," Silences and Sounds, 3/3/25, https://silencesandsounds.blogspot.com/2025/03/my-late-lamented-everything-notebook.html.

Friday, November 21, 2025

Carving the Nativity in 1520

The anonymous carving of the Nativity of Jesus that is found in the Moravian Gallery in Brno (Czech: Moravská galerie v Brně) dates from around 1520 and is sculpted from linden wood. According to the museum sign, it’s from Southern Bohemia or Lower Austria. It’s a busy image:


To the left, Joseph enters from an arched doorway, while the ox and ass peak in. The woven basket is an interesting detail, and Joseph’s beard has a more exaggerated set of curlicues compared with the torso of Christ dating from around 1500.  Clearly, there’s a style.

Mary is observing as a group of children appear to have Christ in a blanket – reminds me of the childhood game with a parachute, but with a baby, not a ball. There might be some safety concerns here.

Standing up behind is the hillside, with flocks, while we peak into a scene with a cradle on one level and a store-room on another. I’m not sure what the round basket-like object is, or the bags (?) on top of it; to my eye the thing on top looks like a lap desk, but then, I like a good lap desk.

In other words, it is a scene of abundance.

Joseph’s square bib with its edging seems very 16th century to my eye, while the keffiyeh (square headcloth) with brown agal (the rope to hold it in place) is the one gesture to the middle eastern origins that came to my attention

The oversized baby comes with oversized hair for a newborn, but the gestures of the “support staff” that tend to him are visually more interesting. The one at the bottom right is particularly interesting, the turn of her shoulder showing the work she is putting in, and the sweep of the skirt contrasting with the horizontal band of her blouse. I’m pretty sure those are wings on the worker who faces her, the angelic and the human working together in the story.

The flocks deserve a close look, along with the hilltop habitations; the middle one with its miniature walls suggest that all was not always peaceful in these imagined times.


And then there’s the Mary, not, evidently, in “Virgin Mary Blue” but rather a acreamy color. She’s still got the nicely decorated collar line and flowing fabric. Her hair is loose and very, very long – down to her calves, at a minimum

Her chin has a bit of a dimple, and she has the high forehead that was a signal of beauty:


Her headband is more ornate than Joseph’s, a twisting comination of patterned and smoothed side replicated by the sculptor. And, we can see that her hair was likely blond, with all that yellow tinting surviving to the present day.

In short, lots to look at. There’s no single focal point here; instead, everything participates in the story. That shared participation is what gives the carving its warmth. It leaves you with the sense that holiness and humanness are woven together in every inch of the scene.


OTHER BRNO MORAVIAN GALLERY ARTWORKS: 

Wednesday, November 19, 2025

Brno’s Torso of Christ

Keeping up my theme of art works from The Moravian Gallery in Brno (Czech: Moravská galerie v Brně) – because who among us doesn’t have a backlog of photos from their phone – today’s post is on the badly charred torso of Christ from ca 1500.

This is an amazing piece, first because it survived at all. The middle portion of the sculpture looks more like what one sees when one rolls a log out of the campfire to start the process of tidying up the campsite for the night. The blackened, charcoal-black interior is exposed to the modern eye as a textural commentary on the substance of the object, carbon transmuted not to diamond but to dust.

Torso of Christ, Brno Moravian Gallery, detail

And then the surprise. Move one's attention from the char to the head, and there is an eloquence to the sculpture that explains its ongoing presence on display. The rough-hewn nose, slightly flat on the top, and shaded from the smoke on its size reminds us of the carver’s art,while the moustached and bearded mouth shows the way that broad incisive lines can add character and heft to a face. The curls at the bottom of the beard seem artifact, not natural curl—made, not grown. This seems stylistically telling, a style “from” somewhere and sometime, the kind of over-the-top taste that makes the grandkids groan. Surely this is a detail that might help us localize the sculpture?

Likewise, the carved curls to the side of the face show the lions-mane hairstyle of a glamour boy. A bit Fabio-esque, am I right? Compare the sculpted image to the profiles of the 1980's mega-model bedecking romance novels from the Guardian retrospective of 2015:



"Fabio: a man of many book covers" from The Guardian

Both have voluminous and abundant hair, with curled whisps providing shape. Those enviable tresses are slightly longer than shoulder-length. A heavier curve of especially dense locks right at cheek level then extends the gesture of the cheekbone out into airier, hairier space. Good hair is an attractive trait, in martyr or in model.

Fabio is fun, of course, but the Christ figure is also a man of sorrows, a vivid reminder of the passion story, so let us return our focus there.

The moustache, of course, adds a countervailing curve, turned up where the beard turns down, adding a bit of sinuous shaping; not so much an S- curve as a mini-recurve bow, adding interest to the downward droop of sorrow from the eye. You know that tears would catch there.

The statue’s worry lines are again a reminder that a simple wedge-shaped line can do a lot to tell a story, and the slit of the eye asks the viewer to imagine the loss of closure.

In all, it is a gripping statue, one that speaks volumes through its silence, the parted lips a final exhalation heard across the centuries.


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Tuesday, November 18, 2025

The 15thc Swabian Madonna of Brno

The Moravian Gallery in Brno (Czech: Moravská galerie v Brně) is the second largest art museum in the Czech Republic. It’s also free (freeee freeeee freeee), and a nice destination for a stroll out of the city center. It’s easy to find, since it’s adjacent to the equestrian statue of Jobst of Moravia, created in 2015 by Jaroslav Róna. There’s also a little carousel on the square. When I was there, they were just starting to set up for the Christmas market.

The gallery itself has a number of treasures, but I’m going talk today about the wooden sculpture by an unknown Swabian sculptor, a Madonna with Child on a crescent moon. Swabia, for those of you who've forgotten, is in southwestern Germany, and was generally centered on one of those stem Dutchies, linked by tribal identity and language (one of the Alemannic dialects).

Swabia, CC-BY Shaqspeare, Wikipedia

The image of the Madonna and child is quite standard for the period; quite tall, relative to its width, suitable for fitting into a prescribed architectural niche. It's interest is generally in the waist-and-up region, with the crowned head of Mary as one distinct "top" and that of the babe as a second, creating an interesting tension between these two areas of activity. Unlike some other statues of the period, Mary looks out at the viewer, rather than at the infant in her arms. And the focus of the child is in a different place than that of Mary, which enlivens the sculpture in some interesting ways.
 

This late fifteenth century Madonna has the classic fabric folds typical of the period. What I like about this one is that she makes herself into a kind of curved bench for the child, jutting out her right hip to make a place-holder for the babe. Who among us when holding a squirming infant hasn’t adopted that trick? The humanizing element of that gesture quite caught my attention. 

Then there’s the child. Here, the artist is perhaps a bit less realistic; the close-to-round face and the receding hairline seem less authentically child-like and more cartoonish than the more oval face of his mother. Perhaps the artist was going for the chubby innocence of a protected and indulged child, Mary’s care mapped into healthy youth. But the artist also invites us to look beyond the round cheeks and tend more closely to the story line. By depicting the child’s direct gaze and introducing a slight droop of the babe’s left lower eyelid, the unnamed artist evoke a sadness that predicts where the story will go; it is an affective choice that compresses the whole story into the single scene.

The Madonna stands on the crescent moon, a reference to Mary as the apocalyptic woman of Revelation 12: “A woman clothed with the sun, with the moon under her feet, and on her head a crown of twelve stars.” The moon is here literally “under her feet,” in the position of the defeated dragon of saints’ imagery – another element that maps back to Revelations and the serpent/Satan’s defeat.

This "moon sickle" image is multi-valent. Depending on the interests of the devotee, the symbol could be read in one of several ways.

Through her dominion over the moon, Mary signals Christ’s upcoming mastery of the celestial order, itself perhaps signaled by the crown-of-stars. (Might the stars have been painted on the statue’s crown? Perhaps, but too much time and too many wood-boring worms have had their way with the statue to be sure.) At the same time, in German-speaking lands of the fifteenth century, the moon’s crescent had become a convenient visual shorthand for the Immaculata tradition. It marked Mary’s exceptional purity, and the belief that she stands outside the stain of earthly corruption. Some devotional writers also aligned the moon with the Church itself; it reflects the sun’s light just as the Church reflect’s Christ’s light. Mary’s stand, in other words, is both the mother of Christ, and the mother of ecclesia. (And yes, I’ve read a LOT of Hildegard in the last two weeks!)

I’ve thought about that moon shape; it’s a waxing moon, its mouth upward. The upward curve telegraphs growth and upward momentum; not only does it lift her up, it is also an uplifting object, one that represents light gaining on darkness. She is lifted outside of the plane of human concerns (plague and marauders and storms) and as such able to intercede from above. The moon places the mother figure in the heavens, a salvific force for good. Likewise, the waxing moon is the moon of beginnings: the start of the month and the start of the salvation story simultaneously. And if we read the moon as Mary herself, she too is light, and grows in her role; she too is pure and “full of grace,” the intercessor of intercessors.

Yet, at the same time, this is a triumphalist image. Late medieval viewers recognized the moon as a symbol of mutability, its phases shifting and unstable. If we read the image as conflictual, Mary against the moon, we get another set of associations. Her foot-grinding stance vis-a-vis the moon suggests her win over the negative valences of change. Mary’s constancy and care for the baby Jesus implicitly contrasts with the fickleness of the moon with its variable phases and inconstancy. We can learn from that: Mary is constant; the moon is not. She is light and truth triumphant; it will wax and wane, fading into darkness. She is human, embodied love; it is distant, abstract, untouchable.

No wonder iconography of the period was full of the moon-sickle: it offered artists a graceful compositional device to serve as imagistic pedestal, and gave devotees a symbol dense with cosmic, theological, and personal meanings. Much to muse on, eh?

Of course, the lacy texture of the statue gives it much of its current charm, but that’s an unintentional collaboration with various kinds of woodworms.


The small bore-holes suggest that this statue has been the focus of Anobium punctatum, also known as the furniture woodworm, though there are a large array of woodworms that could have been the culprites. The small 1-2mm holes weaken the wood structurally, but leave behind the intricate textured surface that we see. The statue was probably carved in a soft wood like linden or pine, though I don’t know if the wood type has been formally identified. The fluctuating humidity of churches lends itself to wood-boring larvae, and the timeframe has granted repeated generations the chance to chow down on some cellulose and change the surface texture of the work before our eyes.

So, Mary might be constant, but her evocation in wood is somewhat less stable. Time and clime have created a textured surface, one that bears the marks of centuries as much as the marks of devotion. Those tiny tunnels and bore-holes are reminders that even sacred objects are subject to earthly forces—decay, insects, and the slow passage of time. And yet, those very imperfections give the statue a tactile intimacy: you can almost feel the layered history of hands, prayers, and centuries pressing into the wood alongside the tiny, patient work of the worms.

In the end, the Swabian Madonna of Brno is a study in contrasts: the eternal and the temporal, constancy and change, human care and nature’s stolid emphasis on mutability. Standing on her crescent moon, Mary embodies celestial triumph maternal constancy. But she also serves as a witness to the realities of our human existence, in which even strength is inevitably shaped by the forces of nature and time. There is, I think, beauty in such change; we can see back to the symbol that was, while still loving the lacework that is its present representation. In short, the marks of woodworms and the patina of centuries have ultimately become part of the sculpture’s narrative, connecting us to both its creation and its long life.


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Monday, November 17, 2025

Asian Sojourn 8: Ubon Ratchathani, Thailand (travel of 13-14 Jul 2025)

From Nepal, we took a night flight to Thailand. It seemed like a good idea at the time, though I admit that the 3 a.m. transfer in Bangkok is only a vague impression in my memory, and we were both a little befuddled wandering around Ubon Ratchathani at 8 a.m., wondering when we could go back and get ourselves a nap!

If you want a taste of Thailand without the sense of city urgency, Ubon Ratchathani is a convenient stop for the traveler. It worked well for us since you can easily catch a bus over to Laos (which was next on our plan!), and it is a bit calmer (I’m told) than Bangkok. The city is known for its long tradition of temple scholarship and for the crafts and rituals surrounding the annual Candle Festival.

The humidity was high, but the traffic was certainly more ordered than what we’d seen in Nepal, and that first morning, we found ourselves a nice airconditioned coffee shop and slurped our way into consciousness. To adjust to the weather, we tended to walk in the mornings and evenings, and nap during the afternoons. And Nissa did her long training run while I went birding, so we managed to fit in several different kinds of adventures across our 48 hours!

The architecture was quite different from that of Nepal – more "hot flame" type curls to the rooflines; more ornament; more gilt. We spent both days wandering around enjoying the parks and the Wats and temples. To my friends and family: yes, it is in fact possible for me to go to a city and not tour a museum. That’s because I was caught up in the joys of exterior architecture!

Cynthia and Nissa, jaunting around Ubon's many Wats!

We also lucked out and were in the city for the tail end of the illuminations festival, with decorative lights at a dozen key city destinations. The brilliant colors and gentle shadings enlivened the architecture, and several sound installations provided soothing tempi and a new-age vibe to the destinations.



We actually did a bit of shopping, and had dinner at the night market. My big discovery was watermelon slushies. They might just be my new favorite drink.


Big C Supercenter
The Thung Sri Muang Night Market with all of its abundance.

One of the most interesting sights was the Hor Trai, or manuscript library, of Wat Thung Si Mueang. It is on stilts in the water to avoid bug invasions, and inside the scrolls are wrapped in bright bits of fabric

And, of course, we saw the markers of sound, but not the sounds themselves.In other words, we saw plenty of temple drums and gongs, but we never happened to be there when they were sounding.

In all, we found Ubon to be both picturesque and relaxing; I wouldn’t mind going back sometime – perhaps when I’ve slept the night before!


RESOURCES

  • Travel to Thailand is relatively easy as US citizens; instead of a Visa, one applies for a Thailand Digital Arrival Card, which we were able to do on our phones. We also got eSims (from trip.com) so had plenty of data

  • Details of things to do and navigational guidance are available at https://en.wikivoyage.org/wiki/Ubon_Ratchathani – a very handy tool!

  • We stayed at Hotel Phadaeng, which is less then ten minutes from 7-minute walk from Thung Si Muang Park. They had a luggage drop-off which let us wander around unencumbered while waiting on a reasonable check-in time.

  • We ate at the Thung Sri Muang Night Market – and recommend that you do too!

  • We took an Uber out to the Big C Supercenter to do some shopping (and to arrange for our bus tickets to Pakse, Laos). We ate at the food court there. So many interesting food choices!

Sunday, November 16, 2025

Asian Sojourn 7: Life and Its Endings (Nepal’s Pashupatinath Temple) (travel of 12 Jul 2025)

Today’s post starts with a content warning (#CW); #Death, #cremation, end-of-life ceremonies.

It feels a little bit “Harold and Maude”; we went to Nepal and went to other people’s funerals. But it is evidently accepted practice, and is paired at the Pashupatinath Temple with the festival-like celebration of life that occurs on the other bank of the Bagmati River.

Still, some readers may choose to skip the rest of this entry, since I include images of the cremation fires, and that’s not to everyone’s taste.

Once we decided that the day’s adventure included watching end-of-life ceremonies in the evening (gates of the Temple open at 5p), the next question was how to get there. I am VERY grateful to my traveling companion, Nissa, that she’s a good sport, because “let’s walk” took us into parts of Kathmandu that probably don’t get a lot of tourist traffic. If any. Oh, there’s plenty of (regular) traffic, but it was rather seedy in places. I was glad I had boots for the broken concrete of the sidewalks, for instance. Still, there were moments that took our breath away. A stupa, and a crowded street:


When we got to the Hindu temple, we paid our NPR 1,000, but we also hired a guide. I’d recommend doing that, since he took us places I would NEVER have dared to go, fearing to intrude. Our guide kept up a running commentary about the Hindu belief system, the representations we were seeing, the kinds of events we would be seeing that evening, and the places we were within the temple complex. Be forewarned, though, those guides are on a timetable; it felt more akin to a slow jog than a tourist tour! Also, he asked for his tip in “our” currency, so have an appropriate bill in a ready-to-reach pocket. ($5 is considered adequate, $10 is generous. He was worth $10. By comparison, entry to the temple was about $7 USD.)

We did get a glimpse of the famous Nandi bull, a representation of Lord Shiva in animal guise. That’s the representation that gives the temple complex its name: Pashu = animal and Pati = lord, so Pashupatinath = Lord of the Animals. The more you know...

But the ceremonies of cremation were our principal concern, in part because I have a course I’m creating on music and death. So we observed with interest the several facets of the ceremony.

The mourning crowd waits on the bodies to be carried out to a spot down by the river. Here we are in anticipation – you can see the platform where the bodies will be put.


Do stop reading here if actual bodies make you uncomfortable.

For the rest of you…

The bodies are then carried on a stretcher, accompanied by a crowd, until they come to the appointed spot for the cremation fire. These platforms are covered so that the fires can burn even in monsoon season. (As of 2016, some cremations have adopted a new technology of electrical fire, saving on the cost of wood, but many families have chosen the traditional wood-burning method; see Hadders 2017 and Poudel and Uprety 2017). The platforms for the cremation proper are, like the greeting of the body, located by the river, and each platform becomes the center of a gathering of friends and relatives. (The cremation grounds are called the “Aryaghat,” a “ghat” being a flight of steps leading down to a river.)



Unlike Southern U.S. deaths I have attended, though, there’s no viewing of the face, just a wrapped body. Nor is the kind of dressing up to which I am accustomed; the crowd seemed to be a very come-as-you-are. Death is here seemingly represented as an occurrence of the middle of life, not as an exceptional ceremonial event.


The to-and-fro of people and the gathering of crowds are similar to funerals I’ve attended, but there seems to be less focus on the bereaved family, and more on the departed. That difference, I’ve learned, reflects a distinct understanding of what the ceremony is meant to achieve. Poudel and Uprety argue that “The prime purpose of the cremation is to depurate the dead body and free the soul from the body of the deceased ones to secure a safe journey to heaven.” The fire is cleansing, clearing the body of impurities, and allowing the spiritual cycle to progress.

What’s amazing is that across the river are the ceremonies which reinforce life. Singing and joyousness are acoustically juxtaposed with the murmurs of the cremation crowds, and the two ceremonies overlap, with death starting the evening and the music of celebration picking up closer to sundown. I'd share a video, but by that point my phone had decided that it wasn't going to cooperate, and somehow I didn't grab Nissa's videos before I left the country. Sadness.

Our stamina and crowd tolerance didn’t take us to the end of the evening’s events; we bowed out with about an hour left to go. And having walked there, we’d certainly finished our step count for the day, so we made our way to the taxi stand, and took a taxi home.

It was a solemn evening, but a profoundly moving one.

Having seen all of this firsthand, I couldn’t help but start asking questions -- the kind of questions that pull me out of “traveler mode” and straight into “researcher mode.” What does it mean to modernize something so steeped in ritual? Who decides when tradition gives way to technology?

If that sounds like the beginning of a mini-lecture, well… it kind of is. The next bit digs into some of the scholarship around cremation practices in Nepal and how modernization has reshaped them. It’s less “travel diary,” more “academic curiosity at work”—so fair warning if you came only for the story part.

WOOD OR ELECTRIC? TRADITION OR ENVIRONMENTALISM

After leaving the temple that evening, I found myself thinking not just about what we had seen, but about how these rituals adapt—or resist adaptation—in a changing world. The practices at Pashupatinath aren’t fixed like a fly in amber; they live at the intersection of faith, environment, and economics. The option of an indoor electric cremation is nowadays a choice that Nepalese families can make. There are several reasons that one might want this “modern” (and technological) solution to the cremation challenge. It is cheaper, a not insignificant consideration in a country with the high poverty levels of Nepal. It is also environmentally beneficial; the pressure of wood usage has degraded forest levels, and pushing particulate matter into the air is at odds with “clean air” regulations. In short, the electric crematorium represents both a practical and ecological response to modern pressures. Yet families often continue to prefer the traditional methods. Dal Bahadur Singtan found that “Resistive behavior of people due to cultural and religious attachment was found as the major problem for change” (Singtan 2014). This “resistance” is less about stubbornness than about meaning: cremation, here, is not merely disposal, but a final act of devotion, bound tightly to ideas of purity, release, and continuity.

Costs of cremation can be relatively high. Singtan lists a series of costs: “Rs. 200 for registration of a corpse, Rs. 400 per kg wood, and Rs. 1200 per Brahmin for cremation. Other expenditure would be in purchasing ghee, sugar, dried wood pieces, flowers, garlands etc…” He finds that a minimal ceremony – baseline costs -- would amount to around 6,000 Rs. per corpse (Singtan 2014, 39-40). Costs can be higher, of course; heads of state might be burned with sandalwood, but the corresponding budget puts such ceremonial enhancements far, far out of reach of the average household! In this way, even death participates in the hierarchies of everyday life. The questions of what one can afford, and what one must forego, shape how the sacred is enacted.

In their interview-based study of Nepalese participants’ choices in the modern (electric) cremation vs traditional (wood) cremation practices, Poudel and Uprety (2017) found that many participants make the choices they do because “respondents believe that significant number of tourists come to visit Pashupatinath temple to observe open pyre cremation process.” Here, tourism has become yet another layer in the story: the act of cremation, once private and familial, now carries a public and even performative dimension. The families see themselves as promoting local culture; performing a kind of cultural heritage in public is a tourist draw and a kind of public education, layering an outward-facing meaning onto a ceremony that is also inwardly beneficial. Families reported that they preferred the traditional method because “it increases the sense of belonging, identity and maintains the beauty of the performed rituals” (Poudel and Uprety, 2017). Seen this way, maintaining the open-pyre tradition is not simply resistance to change—it is also an affirmation of identity, a choice to be visibly and proudly part of a cultural continuum.

In all of this, what stands out is how layered the act of cremation at Pashupatinath has become—spiritual duty, ecological questions, an often emotionally fraught economic calculation, and cultural performance are all folded into one. Families choose between modern efficiency and traditional sanctity, and those choices reveal as much about identity as about practicality. To witness these rituals, then, is to glimpse not just the end of a life but the ongoing negotiation between faith and change, private grief and public meaning. It’s precisely this tension—between devotion and display—that has drawn scholars to situate Pashupatinath within another, more global frame.

DARK TOURISM:

Scholars, too, have turned their attention to this intersection of ritual, observation, and meaning. Kunwar et al. have argued that Pashupatinath might helpfully be more actively framed as part of the dark tourism industry. That term, dating back to the 1990s, encompasses “the presentation and consumption of real and commodified death and disaster sites.” (Foley and Lennon 1996). In this view, Pashupatinath is not just a sacred site but also a destination shaped by the gaze of those who come to witness death—tourists like us, whose presence inevitably changes the experience itself.

Kunwar and his colleagues suggest that, since tourists are shaped by what they see and seek, the temple might intentionally cultivate the spiritual dimension of that encounter. The act of watching, they propose, could “engage or trigger within their visitors some issue of social conscience, or … some shared emotion or an experience of involvement.” Learning, in this model, becomes potentially cathartic. That argument reframes spectatorship not as intrusion but as a possible form of empathy—an unsettling idea, but also a generous one.

They also acknowledge that some respondents would prefer to develop the site more holistically, emphasizing not just the cremation grounds but also the temple’s broader ecology of devotion—the Yogis, the Sadhus, the everyday flow of pilgrims. In that balance between ritual spectacle and spiritual depth lies the continuing tension of the site itself: how to honor what is sacred while accommodating what is seen.
Indeed, the framework of dark tourism itself has been challenged. Bowman and Pezzullo (2010), for instance, question the negative charge of the word “dark.” Must the curiosity that brings us to such places always be morbid? Or can it be a gesture of respect, even affirmation—a way of learning through witnessing? After all, macabre is in the eye of the beholder.

For us, that distinction felt personal rather than theoretical. We were curious, yes, but not morbidly grief-stricken. I did find myself thinking back to a family funeral a few months earlier, but not in an emotional way—more as a quiet comparison of practice and meaning. The scholar in me wanted to understand; the traveler in me wanted to bear witness. Nor was our curiosity meant to be intrusive. We had confirmed ahead of time—both through our guide and in the literature—that respectful observation by outsiders was not considered offensive. If seeing and understanding are done with care, then perhaps looking itself can become a form of cultural exchange.

And that brings me back to our end of evening. The music rising from across the river—the songs of the living—seemed to answer the smoke of the pyres in a kind of dialogue between presence and departure. That strong life-affirming and concertizing element served not just as a geographic counterpoint but as an emotional one, giving meaning to me personally for the evening as a whole. In the midst of life we are in death (Media vita in morte sumus), as the chant reminds us. But in the midst of death, Pashupatinath reminds us, we are also in life.

The evening left me thinking that perhaps what defines a culture is not how it celebrates life, but how it allows death to remain visible within it.


REFERENCES

  • Bowman, M. S. & Pezzullo, P. C. “What ‘s so ‘dark’ about ‘dark tourism’?: Death, tours and performance.” Tourist Studies, 9(3) (2010): 187-202.

  • Foley, M. & Lennon J. “JFK and dark tourism: A fascination with assassination.” International Journal of Heritage Studies, 2(4) (1996): 198–211.

  • Hadders, H. “Establishment of electric crematorium in Nepal: continuity, changes and challenges.” Mortality (2017): 1-16.

  • Kunwar, R. R., Homagain, B., & Karki, N. “Exploring the Prospective of Dark Tourism in Pashupatinath: A Hindu Pilgrimage Site, Nepal.” Journal of Tourism and Hospitality Education, 11 (2021): 93–127. https://doi.org/10.3126/jthe.v11i0.38248

  • Poudel, Rojisha, and Mina Devi Uprety. “Traditional and Modern Practices of Cremation: Significance and Challenges” [conference paper]. International Conference on Social Structure and Social Change, Pokhara, Nepal, 2017.

  • Singtan, Dal Bahadur. “Resistance to change in cremation practices in Pashupati area.” M.A. Thesis, Kathmandu University School of Education, 2014.

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